Day 2
Allow me take the reins and lead the way, walk as I walk and talk as I talk, please the Father as I do (having a gentle and humble spirit) and your soul will be renewed and at rest Matthew 11:29 (paraphrased by me)
Whew! This needs to be deeply unpacked and I am not sure that one page will do, but let’s try shall we?
This is probably one of the more complex things for me as a new mom. My brain makes me feel like I need to do and do and do some more.
How do I balance the responsibility of raising and nurturing or homemaking and training alongside earning a living and being a wife and really just being my own person too? I look around and feel so overwhelmed, there doesn't seem to be any way out of this rat race, except.
Except I obey:
A call to do the crazy
To follow completely
Lay down my need to control
Learn the ways of the Master
To be gentle and humble
And receive rest and renewal
It is essential for me to trust in the LORD with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. Not in some ways but in all ways, submitting to Him so that He will make my paths straight. (Prov 3:5-6).
Laying down my need to control and micromanage everyone including me sounds scary because if I don't lead, Lord won't everything fall apart? And He answers softly, ‘If I am not in it, it is already fallen apart’ (Rom 12:5)
Laying things down at the feet of God is an act of deep trust. Handing God the reins means we believe that He knows what’s best and can handle anything that pops up. It’s hard because we interpret it as us failing. Our fears that things won’t work out feel very real but they are unfounded because God can never fail. EVER. Anything that makes you feel like you could possibly do it better is a lie, discard it immediately!
So now what? Well like Jesus says, we have to learn His ways. Listen, study, obey, repeat.
I have to clarify here that this does not absolve us of work, work given to us by God is good and life giving but there is a time for everything Ecc 3:1-8. Time to rest, time to work, time to sow, time to reap. God is not a hard task master, He is our dear Father and Friend. We must learn to listen to what He is saying just like Jesus did so that we rest when He says rest and we work when He says work. This allows us to take time to be renewed, otherwise guess who gets the brunt of our fatigue and weariness? Yes, our loved ones (husband, children, parents, staff, etc). My sister, please don’t toil in a season of rest.
It’s hard to believe that you can triumph from a place of rest but the journey is just beginning, those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength.